We are getting ready to go on our anniversary trip this weekend! We are going to Kiawah Island off the coast of Charleston. We always anticipate our anniversary trip a ton and make a really big deal out of it. We enjoy looking forward to it as much as actually going on it!

However, this year has been a little different for me. I haven’t been AS excited as I usually am, and it took me the longest time to figure out why. I finally realized what it was – I am really going to miss Ali! Last year at our anniversary, she was only 3 months old so we could only go off overnight, and I am ashamed to admit, I really didn’t miss her at all! That was during her Ali-qaida phase and so it was easy not to miss a screaming baby.

In the past 6 months or so, though, she and I have really bonded and I really love her in the way that I always thought I would love my baby. I love being with her, playing with her, talking with her, everything! She is my ever-present little buddy.

I know it sounds stupid that it took me that long to realize that I was going to miss my daughter, but it is just a new feeling for me, because Chris has always been the only person in my life that I craved being with and that I would miss if I weren’t with him every day, so going off on vacation with him was a total win-win-win! Every vacation with Chris has been a dream vacation for me! So this is the first time in my life that I have had someone else that I would miss if I went off with Chris – it’s odd!

I know that Ali will have a WONDERFUL time with her Gramamma and Pop – and that my parents will have a wonderful time with her! She probably won’t even miss us! And I also strongly believe that It is imperative for parents to get away at least once a year together. The best way that we can love Ali is to love each other even more!! I want our marriage to be as strong as it is now for the rest of our lives, and investing in our relationship is a vital key to that. I’m really starting to look forward to our trip as it gets closer, and oddly enough, realizing why I wasn’t looking forward to it as much has helped me look forward to it more. The place we are going is going to be beautiful and relaxing and so much fun!!

…but I’ll still miss my baby girl!!!

4 thoughts on “odd new feelings

  1. You can call everyday! Your dad would laugh at me because on my much needed mini-trips away I would call home every day. At least once a day, sometimes more.

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